written October 19, 2020
For my siblings, who understand.
Have you ever been
Simply
Forgotten?
Sitting
Like a dusty jewelry box
On a shelf,
Waiting
To be remembered,
To be meaningful.
You try your best
To make excuses
For them, your friends.
In the excitement,
You forget too, right?
But you never forget,
Not so momentous a day
As this.
Aching
As if to itch an insect bite
Or scab,
But holding back
To be remembered,
To be meaningful.
Sometimes
A lack of action
Is more hurtful
Than an action itself.
No word at all
Can speak more words
Than a thousand insults
Or a thousand praises.
Longing
Like the new kid at school
Alone at lunch.
Wishing
To be remembered,
To be meaningful.
Yet no matter
How many times
You’re forgotten,
You still love them.
They’re funny, smart,
Kind, and good.
And they love you too,
As they’ve said plenty.
Feeling disillusioned
Like the back-up girlfriend,
Realizing she’s second.
Pining
To be remembered,
To be meaningful.
You remember wistfully
All the good times
You’ve had with them
And will have again.
The worst part is,
They won’t realize
The pain
Of being forgotten.
Yearning
Like one who’s seen an injustice
To speak up, get it out.
Grieving
To be remembered,
To be meaningful.
Do you say something
About how you feel?
Will it hurt them?
Don’t they love you?
Yes, they do.
They just have others
Closer to their heart.
How does one respond
To that realization?
Sitting. Waiting.
Aching. Holding back.
Longing. Wishing. Pining.
Feeling disillusioned.
Yearning. Grieving.
All just to be a first
To someone,
To be more special
Just once,
Than anyone else on earth.
Have you ever been
Simply
Forgotten?
Don’t you wish
Someone
Could actually relate?
Did you know
You’ve done that
To Someone?
He’s sitting, waiting.
Longing and yearning
For you,
Grieving that you
Won’t respond
To His love.
The good part is this:
Not only does He
Still love you
Even after
Being forgotten,
You
Are first in His heart.
Have you ever been
Simply
Forgotten?
Not by Jesus.
You are remembered.
You are meaningful.
To Him Who you forget
More often than not.
To Him Who knows
More than anyone
What it’s like
To be forgotten.
TCKs for Christ: Newsletter Manager
Chana
is a TCK from America who spent half of her childhood in Indonesia along with her parents and seven younger siblings. She’s passionate about learning new things and seeing the beauty in differences. In her free time, she likes to read, play board games, talk, laugh, write poetry, joke, and meet new people. She’s also a student at Moody Bible Institute, working towards her bachelor’s in Linguistics and Teaching English. Connect with her social media handle, @Godisgraciousx2.
