Tears

Oh the tears begin
Is this a gift
From way above
Cleansing this darkness
I simply welcomed in?
Or is it a theatre for show?
Am I truly in this place
To be led closer to you?
Or is my desire to be
In my own pride-fueled fantasy
Finally winning within?
In my blackened sins
Find a release
An escape
Then that shame wins
Over my beating heart
Can you Christ
Save us all
From our misery?
As my history
Scares me ever so
The prayers I said
Hoping to save
Came from fear
For the devils around
Now I fear only you
And apparently my desire
To be released from
This sickness in me
So afraid of this
Way of the righteous
As I know
Deep inside
A light inside
Could melt in a fire
Or a wash of hyssop
Could make many clean
The fear installed
From old prophets
Seemed a devilish scheme
So fix the schema
Installed from stupidity
Chasing wisdom
For intelligence’s sake
Drove a stake
Between this love for you
How many miracles must
My drifting eyes see
Before I can accept
Maybe you love me too?
As I reach to the heavens
By looking into this
Abyss of a heart inside
Can you save us
In a moment of peace and love?
Please God
Send that dove once more
That every vile and
Disgusting blasphemy
Could lead me not
To feel so happy
I remove the desire
To follow you
Please take me home
That on this quiet Sunday
The heaven
That briefly touches earth
Could give a saint
To shackle himself
To only you
Save the others
Before you come to me
As I know unworthy
Will I ever be
But still the desire to struggle
To my last breath
Is a gift I hope to see
Save my friends
Family
The enemies too
Be the hue of majesty
We aspire to

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